Feeling very emotional tonight (not in a bad way), playing all my old music and remembering myself as a younger man, full of dreams and passion.
Then realise that despite the passing years, I still very much still have both and the longer I remain GF the more I feel they are returning to my life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQykMqS83XA
Life is good
Sbb
Home after a great day at work, to the drunken angry monster....looks like the counselling has not hit the spot yet 🙁
This is my major trigger, but im strong and not going to react in my normal way.
I was GF yesterday and will remain so today.
Heartbreaking as everything else in my world is so positive right now.
Sadly seems the obvious path is becoming the right one.
(Note to self - When in doubt, remember how you feel right now!!!)
Skyblueblue wrote:
Home after a great day at work, to the drunken angry monster....looks like the counselling has not hit the spot yet 🙁
This is my major trigger, but im strong and not going to react in my normal way.
I was GF yesterday and will remain so today.
Heartbreaking as everything else in my world is so positive right now.
Sadly seems the obvious path is becoming the right one.
(Note to self - When in doubt, remember how you feel right now!!!)
Glad you're getting through it. keep using your tools. tri
Take care of you & stay focused on the positive things.
I feel for you Sbb, I was raised by a 'drunken angry monster' ..... and he wouldn't be helped.
Keep doing what you're doing.... you are worth it!
M x
M x
Sillycow wrote:
Take care of you & stay focused on the positive things.
I feel for you Sbb, I was raised by a 'drunken angry monster' ..... and he wouldn't be helped.
Keep doing what you're doing.... you are worth it!
M x
M x
Thanks SC - The monster has gone to sleep - its bloody awful.
Sbb x
Hi, stay strong and positive, don't let anyone or anything drive you back to that awful addiction, I'm proud of you because your remaining gf through this. Take care x
Happy Birthday to you....
Happy Birthday to you....
The big 50...Welcome to my world, 2 years past it but refuse to accept I'm ....Passed it lol!
I'm a wee bit early but my old memory doesn't work great in the A.M so I'm posting this now 🙂
Have a great day... Think happy thoughts...Enjoy the world around you!
Mari xx
2 kisses just because it's your birthday :))
Sillycow wrote:
Happy Birthday to you....
Happy Birthday to you....
The big 50...Welcome to my world, 2 years past it but refuse to accept I'm ....Passed it lol!
I'm a wee bit early but my old memory doesn't work great in the A.M so I'm posting this now 🙂
Have a great day... Think happy thoughts...Enjoy the world around you!
Mari xx
2 kisses just because it's your birthday :))
Thank you, I still feel 21 - im not accepting this gracefully 🙂
Sbb
I love wakening up to a new day, each one is an amazing gift.
It offers us a wonderful reset button, which allows us to erase the events of the past from our memory and choose how we want to be for today.
How I begin my day mentally, generally will make my whole day or break it.
My attitude I choose to adopt has a strong effect of the likely outcome of the day.
So I take a moment to calm my mind, have gratitude and have a smile at how lucky I am.
I then remind myself of two things before getting on with my day:
1) I am a compulsive gambler and today regardless of what life throws at me I will not gamble.
2) That like everyone else I am held back by fear far more than limitations, so today I am going to choose to be brave.
I am 100 percent certain that my success will continue to grow as long as every morning I think, plan and do.
Im off to enjoy my very last day as a old young person as tomorrow i become a young old person 🙂
Have the day you want to have.
Sbb
Happy birthday, I hope you do something nice for you, and age is just a number, 50 is th new 40 x
I am strong because I have been weak.
I am fearless because I have been afraid.
I am wise because I have been foolish.
Hi Sbb,
Thanks for the diary, it's a real inspiration and the increasingly positive nature of your posts shows the progress towards a joyful life gamble-free.
Keep it up and thanks 🙂
Phil
The fact that i can head off on a plane for a weekend in the sun, speaks volumes of how much things have turned around.
100 days made me feel wonderful, but this was my big goal.
A second weekend of debotchery, then back to move my life to the next level.
Feeling remarkably happy/strong/positive/focussed.
Jeez im so happy i have stopped gambling.
Note to self - If ever you have an urge read the above !!!
A bit of winter sun, way to go Sbb. Just three things you need to do - enjoy, enjoy and enjoy!
Skyblueblue wrote:
The fact that i can head off on a plane for a weekend in the sun, speaks volumes of how much things have turned around.
100 days made me feel wonderful, but this was my big goal.
A second weekend of debotchery, then back to move my life to the next level.
Feeling remarkably happy/strong/positive/focussed.
Jeez im so happy i have stopped gambling.
Note to self - If ever you have an urge read the above !!!
Have an amazing time Sbb...You deserve it!
Checking in on day 48 🙂
M x
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