Phil
My friend you disappoint me lol!!! Rugby! ! What about the darts! !!
I don't know if you caught it but to lose with a 115.8 average! !!
The things dreams are made of! !!
Glad to read your continued efforts to simply better your own life grow.
Enjoy it, keep embracing it.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back.
I wasn't aware someone lost with such a high average Duncs, althought I'm a huge darts fan I just don't enjoy Premier League darts. I watch all the tournaments, but I think the league format just puts me off, I far prefer knock outs. As for the rugby they can have big matches in both codes Ryan, international union is better than league and club league is better than club union in my opinion. Also there isn't a decent local side to follow in union, whereas I can get to Saints in 45 minutes.
So its day 110 and only 167 days till New York. I have to admit I'm not liking the choices I'm having to make month to month as saving for my trip is really a struggle. I know it will be worth it in the long run, but I think I would have been more sensible booking 5 days rather than 14, or going on a cheaper two week hol. I've had to turn down a few nights out recently or days out as I can't afford them. I need to keep strong as times like that can be when the 'easy money' thoughts come to mind.
No urges today, no bets today!
Day 111 and another day ruined by the football! When I saw the line up in the pub I told my mate we would get beat 4 nil so I wasn't far off. I should have stuck to what I said last week about not going again whilst we had this manager.
No urges today, no bets today!
Take my advice and give up on the football for the rest of this season. Think how much money you'll save. All of that can go into a spending pot for New York City to ensure your trip there is an enjoyable one rather than frittering it away on fruitless wet weekends around the provinces of England watching football.
Phil its been a while man, sorry that football isnt going to plan. You should be like us Irish lads and support Man Utd đŸ™‚
I read your latest entries. I just wanna say a holiday is the right choice. tough decisions made today will make that trip so gratifying.
You've got a goal , the focus is there, keep up the good work
Quick check in for day 112 which was very busy, gamble free and no urges!!
Thanks pellekanin and Stephen for taking the time to post.
113 days today Phil, well done.
Have a good gambling free day.
Suzanne xxx
Thanks Suzanne, 113 days and another mundane Monday. I'm running the shift in work today so it should go a little quicker than usual. Its a much needed payday this Friday and my money should last longer as I have no footy away days planned and nothing too expensive lined up. I need to stay strong this week, keep my barriers in place and my life music high.
No urges and no bets today!
Day 114 and off to the doctors before work for a blood test. I avoid going to my GP at all costs but had to go recently and he wants to do a wellman check on me. Can't wait to get it done and get some food.
No thoughts about gambling today. no urges, barriers are up! No bets today.
Day 115, just been to see my counsellor. Its a big week this week. I'm hoping payday won't bring any urges and I'm looking forward to my finances looking healthier. Can't wait to get work done with for the week, two shifts to go and its been a frustrating week!
No urges today, no bets today!
Day 116 and thankfully two days off after today and payday tomorrow! Hopefully this Saturday won't be ruined by the football for a change! But I am looking forward to a good few beers on Saturday before and after the game.
Got to stay strong tonight, and tomorrow, no thoughts of free money or systems! No bets today.
Well done on 117 days Phil, enjoy your days off, and keep strong my friend.
Suzanne xxx
Hi Phil,
You did not post yesterday and you normally post on your diary and on the challenge thread every day, (not stalking honest lol). but
I do check you out every day lol, I hope it is because your life music was too high.
118 days today my friend, very well done.
Suzanne xxx
Thanks for looking out for me Suzanne, I guess I didn't post because I was busy, I wouldn't say life music was high, but on Friday and Saturday I replaced the urge to gamble by getting absolutely hammered. So I'm on day 120 today and still gamble free. However after having gone so long and found things so easy it was disturbing for the urges to come back so strong. This same thing happened to me last year after I had got through the 100 day mark and I struggled on and eventually slipped up. So I need to clean up my act and stay strong and make sure this doesnt happen again. I have to focus on New York, if I gamble I don't go! I do feel a lot better today, more focussed and need to get back to being positive.
No bets today!
Phil.
Fella addiction will live within us for all our lives, we have to learn to live in harmony with it.
You have put in great effort to do so, addiction will capitalise on all our moods, frames of mind to get us to re commit to feeding it,jjust keep staying one step ahead of it.
Just for today
Enjoy it, you deserve to.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back.
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