beating this terrible illness

Goodluck mate.get on the xmas challenge and stick with us.never give in stay strong.

Thank you mate. I have to beat this otherwise I feel it will beat me. My wife and family are behind me and my wife comes with me to the ga meetings! She is my rock!

Can't believe I have bet today! Roulette again, feel devastated! What can I do? Git my meeting tonight and gona have to tell people that my last bet was today.

Today I have self excluded myself from the betting shops and online.I will be strong and nit listen to the voices!!

Hi Jaym,

Don't give up now. Although you might feel doomed, look at your options.

You could work out a plan to repay your friend and discuss this with them

Or you could try and gamble and end up losing more, probably losing your friend in the process.

It's not worth it.....

Could you agree to pay it back in smaller amounts to your friend, or put it onto a credit card/loan, or is there a family member who could help you out?

Be strong.

Hey up Jaym,

Just started my own diary today after battling against my demons for what seems like forever. My poison is football and Im feeling pretty powerless against it hence my starting off this diary.However bad it seems do not be tempted to have a flutter to pay back your mate because its going to end badly.

I too cannot believe just how far this affliction has dug its claws into me and messed me up. Lets be smart and try and offer a little support to people on the forum struggling to get back on track. I thought I could beat it and stop on my own BUT I CANT ,Hopefully a bit off remote solidarity can be the answer!!?Good luck my friend!!

Hi jaym, I stopped and started and spluttered several times before stopping. Try to rewind and see what prompted you to have another fling. Was it a row with someone ? Having money ?

I read on here somewhere about gambling being a triangle...Having time, Location..and money. Take away any 1 and you cannot gamble. Just take enough money with you as you need, Petrol, lunch money etc and get a standard cell phone without internet. I wish you well

Andy

Mate you keep strong ok?look your debts with time you will pay them,but for that you need to be clean of gambling,just focus on routines and family,love and food!!!you will find your way mate...im three months free gambling and free smoking,im getting fat,but happy!!keep strong!

I went bankrupt in 2008 so really hard to get credit. I just don't know what I can do. I feel like a complete letdown to my brilliant wife and family! Can I ever repay them and get the trust back? This illness has had me for 20 years and only know I realize how serious this is...

change takes time jaym

i'm only a few days into my change but i'm trying hard

hope you keep trying hard as well

no quick solutions to this addiction

Why do I do what I do?

This illness has really got a hold too!

I'm killing myself inside and all the loved ones outside..

I'm really trying to beat this, my head full of voices, filling me full of dread..

I want a happy life with my wife

But these demons I need to shred!

I am trying really hard, but never knew just how hard...

I suppose I have wasted 20 years, in the bookies, all that money, joy, tears and fears!!

Now i have the battle of my life, don't know whether to laugh or cry??

All those people I have hurt, I couldn't cope with another spurt...

Today is the first day were the demons can go away...

And tomorrow I shall say stay away..

I'm going to be strong and show who is boss

I don't want to go on with all this loss...

My wife should have the things she wants..

Not giving it to the losing one!

So NO more bookies and NO more bets

Just a happy family life for all to accept.

Half way on day 1 and thank god I am at work! Keeping strong and not listening to the demons that are in my head!!

Keep strong mate keep strong...

All of your heart in this,put your mind into it,its really important the first week,be strong !!!

Day 2 and feeling strange but proud! I will beat this and I will not go back to my old ways. I will keep busy and love my wife and spend time with all our family...