Day 28
first day off of 2 in a row. I cleaned through the house then went for a few drinks with a work mate and watched a couple films in the evening. just going to do fun things on my days off
Sam
Day 29
was a very lazy morning to be fair and in the afternoon playing snooker. Im happy playing snooker and nothing else can cheer me up like that!!!
looking forward to my next days off now
Sam
Day 30
Well that's a month up! Though things have been good. I feel really flat at the moment. I'm starting to get a bit of clarity in what this has done to me and it's not good!
I had a pretty bad day and I felt worn by the end of it. I don't enjoy my job and I don't have any passion left for it.
I'm going to make some big changes next year and. I've back to Devon and pick up a day time job. All the long hours and late nights from being a bartender have worn me down and it's just not me anymore
Sam
Day 31
Day 31
Was a typical busy saturday, felt a bit better than the day before but not amazing. wish i could pin point why!
Sam
Day 32
This wasnt a good day! i felt very flat all day and very disinterested. I thoroughly hope its not depression kicking back in again as thats a battle i do not want to go back through. I hate feeling this low and it shows how much damage gambling can do to your emotions. Im 32 days clean but its at a cost!!!
Sam
Hi Sam i have problems with depression too and its when in a down phase we can be tempted,but it just makes things worse never helps us out of it.stopping gambling will not make us totally happy and solve all problems but gambling will always end up making us unhappy and everything else worse.wish you well and a clean future 🙂
thank you toomuch
good advice and i guess its just about understanding that the addiction will try to drag me down as i try to recover. but it will be more than worth it in the long run!
Sam
Day 33
Was i better day, i felt a bit more upbeat! i wish i had better control over my emotions as i hate feeling down from time to time.
my shift at work was pretty easy so no complaints there!
Sam
Day 34
today has been a good day, me and my friend assembled my new bed which is very comfy! so no more sleeping on the floor for me!
other than that went to a couple shops! looking forward to pay day and my mum has taken over my finances to i dont have to worry about anything
Sam
Day 35
Wasn't an overly exciting day, played some snooker then had a match in the evening! Really up in the air about whether to move back home next year! Miss everyone too much!
Sam
Day 36
was a good day i guess, realised ive been paid pretty well this month. will be nice not to be skint for ages! thinking about savings and pensions etc. will make me feel better about things !
Sam
Day 37
Worked all day, just discussing my mum how to use my wages. So im getting my bills paid plus paying people off and saving a bit for myself. been thinking about the future too and i think im gonna make a few big changes!
Sam
Day 38
Im on my break from a split shift at the moment. Managed to video call my family back home which made me feel alot better. cant wait for december to come around so i can visit them all!
Sam
Day 39
had a pretty bad day at work! a few arguments with another member of staff and a negative staff meeting to follow. went out bowling in the evening with a couple of mates which made it all better to be fair!
Sam
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