Day One

Day7- a busy day again, but in a good way. Was going to go out tonight to a bar with a couple of friends, but I decided I really need to get straight money wise and get some debts paid off and savings so didn't want to waste the money, plus I'll be thankfully I'm sure in the morning when I don't have a hangover and everyone else does! Early night for me, been a long week. No urges as of yet as still cross with myself for getting into such a mess. But I will get sorted and be 100% happy, I'm sure! C x

Samson you've asked the question where Charley lives and if she wanted to meet up. If she wanted to answer she would of the first time.

If you wish to meet likeminded people go to GA it's full of them.

Hi Samson, I more than happy to support you on here, but I'm not comfortable saying where I'm from. Maybe finding a meeting would be a good idea, as its seems you are happy to meet and talk about your issues, so perhaps give that a think about? I do hope you're doing well and feeling a little more positive about life. C x

Day 8 for me. Wow, to be honest I didn't think I'd make it here without really struggling. Every morning, I wake up, look at my days on here remind myself why i need to stop. I then look at my bank account (doesn't look healthy at all!) and remind myself of what I want from life, which is relief, stress free, debt free, good night sleeps, not to feel ashamed, embarrassed, disgusted in myself anymore. I did for a split second last night wonder what if because I've not gambled for a week, it might be my lucky nightly and I might have a big win that will sort my debt out. But thankfully, I saw sense! As I know it wouldn't of happened and if I won £500, I'd more than likely carry on playing trying to win £1000 and I'd of woke up this morning feeling horrendous! I've woke up, the sun is out and I feel positive! Scares me how easily that could of changed in that split second, but thankfully i was feeling strong. I just have to hope if it happens again, I feel as strong as I did last night. This site really is a fabulous ideas, as if the days of being God we're just in my hand I really don't think it would work, but because it's down on a site or all to see, it really helps me. As its a lovely day, I'm going for a walk and to appreciate the small things in life; like being able to actually enjoy a walk on a sunny day, as I know some people can't. C x

Meant gf not god

Thanks for popping over to my diary love...
Keep taking it a day at a time and you to will get there....it's just avoiding that first spin....
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It sounds like you are doing really well Charley

One of the difficult things is that these days gambling is all around in shops, tvs and avilable online so theres temptations everywhere you look. When i spoke to the lovely gentleman at Gamcare on the phone one of the phrases he mentioned that maybe useful when having these thoughts are "I cant win, because I can't stop" - Thats something I am going to try and keep in mind as well.

Keep going 🙂

Thank you Athena, I love that phrase! I have noticed probably more so than usual because I'm trying this stop, but gambling is everywhere! I thought I'd catch up on abit of Emmerdale today...gala bingo adverts and it has a catchy theme that I sing on my head for the rest of the day! Really wish it wasn't advertised everywhere, as its just makes the fight that little bit harder! I hope you're staying strong too C x

Day 8- Spent a lot of today to and from this site, reading other people's diaries etc This diary is what I need right now, to help me, remind me how strong I need to be. A week has gone by now, and I'm going to be 100% focused for the week ahead! Get organised, stay busy, try and not spend much as want to have a good Christmas this year! To get to Christmas and be gamble free seems like a dream, but I know I just need to take it week by week. For the first time in a while, I'm looking forward to the week ahead, not because I have anything nice planned... apart from a busy week at work, but because I'm determined for another week gamble free. C x

Day 9- a little bit of a rubbish start to the day, banging head and had an awful sleep last night! Not 100% sure why, maybe I was over thanking things it maybe was just one of those nights. Apart from feeling ugh, no urges at the moment and a very busy day ahead. Write tonight C x

Hi Charley,

Thank you for your message on my diary. I really appreciate it.

Congratulations on reaching 9 days gambling free. You will be in double figures tomorrow!

I hope that you are feeling much better. I remember in the first few days of giving up gambling I got a lot of headaches and general feelings of being unwell. It does pass and it is so worth it in the long run.

Stay strong and take care.

Dave X

Thanks Dave, appreciate your comment. Yes, head a little clearer now thank you. Was banging and so fuzzy this morning, very unsual for me! Like you said, will be mixture of emotions and sure it will pass. C x

Day 9 evening- look forward to waking up to my day 10 gf on my screen. Getting an early night, as I don't do well off lack of sleep and messes horrendously with my emotions, need to keep them in check right now, as ft a very busy week of work ahead! Hopefully a good sleep and I'll feel less fuzzy head in the morning. C x

Eekkkk done figures!! Day 10! Again, woke up with a banging head, not sure I've a I've caught abit of something or if it's all part of the process as I don't feel I'm thinking about gambling etc but maybe I am. On my way to work now, so will write in later. Hope everyone has a good day! C x

Hi Charley,

​Great to see you're still going strong and hit your 10 day target! Keep it up!

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