Day One

well done Charley on reaching 29 days, your posts inspire positivity on this forum, keep up the good work

Hi Charley1

Many congratulations on reaching 29 days! Especially on dealing with the trigger of the gambling ad. We can never get rid of triggers completely, but you might find it helps to install an ad blocker, as well as the existing blocks you have in place.

Best wishes

Forum Admin

Hi Charley,

Well done on nearly a month! Triggers will be here and there is nothing we can do. However, you're stronger than addiction and that right choice today will take you to safe and content tommorow ☺
You're doing great, be proud and enjoy your new found life..fog is clearing and true you are getting back to life!

Keep reaping the benefits recovery offers, they will keep coming so just accept them and enjoy!

S x

Thank you Rich, much appreciated you taking the time to congratulate me. 🙂 Cx

Thank you Admin, will have a look into that Cx

Thank you hopeful soul, you're so right about the fog clearing! Things are far from perfect and I could easily feel sorry for myself and dwell on things, but that won't solve a thing! I just have to battle everything head on and remind myself there are people much worse off! Thank you for taking the time to write on my diary. Take Care. C x

Many thanks for your kind.post. it was a shock but we must take strength and move forward.

Best wishes

Day 30-so happy to reach 30days. A busy day ahead, will write in later. C x

Hi Charley,

Thanks for your message on my diary. I really appreciate it. Congratulations on reaching 30 days.

Dave X

Hi Charley,

Excellent work on reaching the thirty days, another milestone passed on this path towards the better life without gambling. Your positive attitude is very good, and make sure your guard against complacency is tight. Well done on paying off that payday loan too...fortunately I've always been able to avoid those, but if I'm honest not by much. Plenty more good stuff to come before Christmas - for me I love American Football, and usually have a Turkey Dinner on Thanksgiving, along with a beer or eight while watching sport. Keep focusing on those good things along the way, and the time will fly on its way towards Christmas.

Don't worry about being keen to pay off the debt - I have a chart which I update whenever I get paid, showing how much, in pounds and pence and as a percentage of the debt I've paid off. It does give me a sense of positive progress.

Keep up the good work.

Thank you Leedso for toe comment, much appreciated. You're right about the debt and at least it isn't getting any bigger. Take Care c x

Thank you Dave:-) Cx

Day 31- don't even know where today has gone to be honest, been so busy again!! But again, in a good way. My homeless box mission is taking off and got lots of people, who want to donate and help, so feeling great at doing something so positive for people much less fortunate than me. Also, another little project to keep me busy, and looking for bargains to add to the boxes 🙂 I've also managed to pick up a few extra hours a week at work, so hopefully it will tie in just nicely with my second job. May be abit tired, but I've got a whole lifetime to catch up when in started and surely the tiredness can't beat the tiredness you feel after losing a whole lot of money in 20mins and feeling horrendous for weeks on end, so a few more hours a week wiling kill me! 🙂 So abit more money at the end of the week to help with Xmas and debts 🙂 Nothing much else to report really, just thrilled at how many want to help with the homeless boxes, like they say you don't ask, you don't get! 🙂 Hipe everyone else is doing well so far this week and staying strong. Cx

Day 32- Good deed for the day done, a couple of packs of biscuits added to my shop and donated to the local food bank. Not much, but all I can afford at the moment. A good, productive day so far, lots of work done and feeling accomplished work wise at wth moment, getting things ticked off my list daily etc. Again, I'm noticing more around me that there are so many unhappy people, but I never noticed because to be honest I was selfish and only cared about my next gamble. I'm making sure I'm taking time out of my day to text, email or call a different friend to see how they are etc. Something so simple, but again something a very badly neglected! Feeling much clearer in my head, much happier about ten future. Today I am truly gravely because: 1) I woke up in a nice warm bed, after a good nights sleep. 2) I ate breakfast and had a coffee to set my up for the day. 3) I had lunch to bring to work. 4) a have shoes on my feet and clothes on my back to get to work. 5) I have a job to go to, in fact I have two jobs, working my second job tonight. 6) I have friends and family, who I love dearly. 7) I'm here, I'm alive and fighting for my future. Happy Wednesday folks. C X

Day 33- Nothing much to report today. Just finishing up Another busy day, but feeling a bit drained if I'm honest. But suppose it's better to be busy than not busy. No urge today, working again tonight, so not much chance to think about it. Looking forward to finish work tomorrow and relaxing! 🙂 Hope everyone else is doing ok. Apologies, as I know I haven't written in many diaries this week, but not had chance to read me...I will catch up at the weekend. C x