Going to keep this thread now!

Hiya Freda..thanks for stopping by....the cd's I saw were from some american company called Crystal I think...but I have heard that Paul Mckennas are good as a few pals of mine have used his stop smoking one..thanks for the recommendation. Never thought about library as these things can be pretty expensive cant they...

I work as part of the Education Department as a staff Trainer for a Vitamin/Mineral and Herbal company that supplies only independents (but not H&B). Been in the trade 17 years and started as a health food retailer)..I cover the Northern and Midlands Territories for the company....hope that makes sense...take care Freda...any sign of the ring? x

Hi Hun,

Thankyou for the post once again youve hit the nail on the head with my ex.

I try my hardest to keep him at arms length and things have been ok for ages but he made some comments and i dont react because of the kids and i refuse to row with him.

I had to see him today and he made some comment but i dealt with it although the feelings were the same as thurs night/fri morn.

He just has a knack of making me feel a inch high.........but your right i need to deal with the painful emotions he brings out in me and the only way to do that is counselling.

Anyway taking up your diary thankyou once again for the support it really means alot.

Hope your ok and feeling good.

Stay Strong

E xx

(((((((FREDA))))))))

How are things going for you?

Hopefully taking care of yourself!

Regards

Hugs from me too 🙂

Hope all is well.

Love Del x

Aw thanks for the hugs! : )

Still no sign of the wedding ring, but my temporary replacement has arrived, and it feels nice to have a wedding band on again.

I am very proud of my husband and our relationship, and I love wearing a ring to show that.

Anyway, today a bit up and down and side to side, emotionally. Just one of those fluctuations in mood I have learned to live with.

Today marks 30 weeks ago that I last gambled. Far longer than I have ever succeeded in recovery before. I am voyaging into new frontiers! oo-er!

Don't think about how long since you last gambled. Think about how you can make the day worthwhile. Time away from gambling is of no consequence to us. Quality of recovery is everything. Glad you got a replacement but I'm sure the original will turn up.

Take care

Thanks Smiler!

Just a quick note to say I am doing great!

I am very grateful to be feeling much better, and more able to cope. I still have anxiety and depression, but am no longer suffering acutely with either.

After having a horrendous 6 months, I feel like the luckiest lass alive to just be coping and managing and not be suffering.

We must be grateful for improvements in our life, even if we are still not yet where we want to be.

-3 this morning? nice..... :'(

H Freda

You made me chuckle. I'm looking at your last post thinking it was some sort of a new cyber sign or something and not being up with technology I thought it would all become apparent in due course. Then I realised minus three! lol

Hope all is good in your quarters

Take care

Yes i was a looking at your last post to and I just couldn't work it out... thanks smiler.. and yes tis a bit nippy in the big wide world. Am having a duvet day today and loving every second of it.

Going great guns Freda.. beyond 30 weeks.. nice one! Not to put a dampner on things but do take heed from my experiences. It matters not the length of time since last gamble... if you get tempted at any point chances are its gonna follow exactly the same pattern as before as if the time in between never happened.. thats been my experince anyway.

Anyway glad your in a good space just now.. long may it continue.. happy days.. S.A 🙂

Thanks SA,

yeah, I was thinking about how it would feel to gamble again, and what would happen just yesterday. I totally believe it is a progressive thing, and I have stopped it from progressing with long periods of abstinence. If I had a gamble tomorrow, it probably wouldn't plunge me straight back into a gambling frenzy - but it wouldn't be enough. It never is. I seem to be able to have the odd slip and get straight back into another long spell of abstinence, but it just makes it harder for me overall. The weeks following a gamble, I have to work hard at talking myself out of it.

I was walking past a place yesterday, where my exclusion has expired - as they only let me do 6 months at a time. I was thinking how nice it was to not be battling to walk past without going in. I like feeling safe in my own city. Even one little flutter would take that away.

It is clever thing that they do having policies on a maximum exclusion period, as you kind of don't want to have go back in there to renew it. I would have to go in more than once, to ask when the manager would be available to do it etc. Even though I feel ok staying clean - I think I will arrange with my hubby to go in one day and do it, just to be on the safe side.

Thankyou for the post hun.

Just reading your post and i have had 2 slips since joining one shortly after joining and one just over a week ago,although neither sent me spiralling out of control it was the feelings and emotions it stirred up that got me more than the actual gambling and then reeling in the "chase the losses" routine. Which is for me extremely difficult to control.

Any hoo waffling now glad your doing so well and seem happier of late.

Stay Strong

E xx

i am doing well have done no bets in the last 8 days

Hiya Freda..thanks for popping into my diary...just posted E to say that I have left you both a message on mine...xxx will get with the programme one day ...xxx You sound like you are keeping well Freda ...am late back tonight so missed catching up on the diaries,....take care xxxxx Rach n Doo xxx wuffski

thanks Rach, Baljit I am not posting support for you until you start writing about BARRIERS you have put up and changes you have made - you ignore the advice anyway.

Well today marks 31 weeks since my last gamble of any kind. I think it is important - as it is an achievement, and a marker to measure the amount my life has moved on. Gambling has not been part of my lifestyle or routine for almost 8 months now. I continue to count, because I want to and at this time it helps.