Going to keep this thread now!

Hiya Freda...thanks lovely......will pop in now and then to see how you are doing....xxx ((((f))))) Rach n Dot

Hi Freda,

Thanks for popping by and your kind words of encouragement.

It seems like you dealt with your annoying neighbours situation well, as you mention in the past you would have been the one trying to appease them but now you deal with situation and move on. It is not like you spent days wasting energy on them. You had your rant and you got over it, well done.

I often try to tell myself not to stress about events that we have no control over but then find myself apopletic about people who dont' let people off the train first and delay everyone by trying to push past.

It is good to have a little rant now and again, it shows you are recovering well, the feelings are coming back. You have let it out, dealt with it and moved on. You are back in control.

Take care

Paul

Hi Freda

Hope you are well, thanks as always for popping into my diary. Life for me at mo pretty busy and normal, its nice!

Lifes too short for cr** and the people who cause it!

take care freda. high five!!! ands xx

soz, short post.

Thanks Paul and ands,

I had a really bad depression day yesterday. It was a real struggle to get through work. If anyone had shouted at me, I would have burst into tears! We were supposed to be going to see a comedian last night, but I wasn't up to it. It was a real shame - we didn't pay for the tickets, as they were a Christmas present, but it was £50 wasted. With depression, you don't know when you are going to have a bad day though, you can't see it coming and give your tickets to someone else.

Still feel a bit fragile today. Going to take it easy, and keep my head down. These feelings will pass.

Hi lovely lady.....thanks for your post there...recovery is a journey for sure and emotions can be on the surface and raw...You're right in "this will pass" as its the dips of normal life we have to manage (and by dips I mean OP....Other People).....

Know what you mean about cancelling things...years ago I cancelled a whole holiday as I just crashed and could'nt face getting off the settee...does come in cycles sometimes.

Just not used to flatness and no drama....normal life...but have to remember the jangles of near breakdown to feel gratitude for today....its all a process taking time isn't it.

At the moment..if i'm out I want to be in and if i'm in I want to be out....pal who i've not seen in ages asked me to go out locally tonight...have said yes but already trying to scheme my way out of it....feel same about a holiday...Can't seem to cope with plans or committments right now....will trundle along now Freda...take care and am still reading your diary Hugs.....Rach n Dot xxx

Take it easy, Freda, and look after yourself.

The good days will come round again!

GT

Hi Freda,

Just popping by to say hi and sorry to hear you had a bad day the other day.

It can strike us down at any time can't it? I hope you are feeling better now and more positive, I am sure that this blip is a temporary one.

It is a long never ending journey with bad days and good days. I am sending you one of your renowned upbeat high fives to help lift spirits!

Take care

Paulds

Aw thanks Dotters, GT, and Paul : )

I'm lucky really, that I only get depression occasionally now. I have a mild kind with me all the time, but I am only disabled by it sometimes.

The cloud seems to have lifted somewhat, thankfully. It goes as inexplicably as it came. I take the lessons that I can from it though - sometimes you have to just let go, accept you have no control, and trust that it will be ok.

I have hit 8 months bet free now, and that is something to smile about!

Hiya Freda,

Good to hear you are doing so well and sound relaxed in dealing with stuff. A big congrats on 8 months. Big hugs.

Del xo

Thanks Delly : )

I feel grumpy this morning! My inner child is stamping her foot and saying "don't wanna go to school tomorrow!"

However, trying to remind myself that today is SUNDAY. If I mentally transport myself to work, I am working a 6 day week - and that is just silly. Everytime I find my mind drifting there today, I am going to shout SUNDAY! to myself.

Ugh. Lol.

start your day again hun...xx

A big well done on 8 months freda.

Work starts tomorrow live for today.

All the best Jeff.

Hey f

This soldier is still marching......

Great news on the 8 months and really pleased your dealing with your depression and anxiety so well.

Marching on

Stay Strong

E xx

Greetings...oh wise one 🙂

Thank you for the message ....hey I'm starting to develop a six pack 😉

Love Del xoxo

Thanks Del - keep going for the burn!

Well, I had quite an upsetting morning. We had an electrician round a couple of weeks ago to look at our kitchen lights. We have those recessed spotlights, and they are constantly blowing bulbs. He said that you couldn't really do anything with them, they are just cheap fittings and it is a common fault.

He advised that we change them to LED's and it would be £150 not including labour or VAT. I said we would think about it. Anyway, we rang to say we would like it done, and he said he would ring me back to arrange to come over. He never rang back, but turned up on my doorstep this morning saying he was here to do the job. I said I didn't know he was coming, because he never rang me back. He started going on saying he said if he couldn't do it on the day he said he would do it early this week - and I said yes, but you never rang back to book the job and confirm so I booked someone else (white lie, but was feeling very weirded out by him just turning up) "well you are going to have to pay for these lights, because I have ordered them specially and won't be able to get my money back for them" he says! cheeky b*********d fronted it out! they were still in their shrink wrapped packaging, of course he would be able to send them back!

Anyway, I told him that I had since gotten a second opinion and they said that a lot of electricians are fitting cheap rubbish that won't last and the job definitely can't be done properly that cheap - so I know we definitely didn't confirm anything with you as we were having second thoughts. He just sneered and said well this other person is obviously ripping you off, so that's your lookout and finally left. I felt very intimidated and definitely didn't want him in my home after he was so aggressive anyway.

I had a bad feeling about it all last week, and it was part of my depression, feeling unsure whether to trust what he said. Goes to show how your gut feeling can be right.

I have emailed this more expensive electrician asking a lot of specific questions, explaining that I am having trouble trusting anyone after this. He is Trustmark registered, which is a government backed scheme to help protect people from getting ripped off, so hopefully he can be trusted. We just aren't jumping into anything at the minute.

I hate having to deal with plumbers and electricians as much like car mechanics - you have no idea if they are trying to rip you off. Unless you go and do the blooming qualifications yourself!

I had weird dreams last night - I was 8 months pregnant, and was also gambling! freaky.