Going to keep this thread now!

Hey f,

Dont really know what to say to make you feel better but i do know that you are a strong lady and will come through this anxiety wobble,maybe you should just shout let it all out and then have a good cry.

Sending hugs,cup of tea,packet of biscuits,big fluffy blanket and hot water bottle wrap up on the settee with hubby and try and relax.

Stay Strong

E xx

Hiya Freda..

Think Libby is right there...a good cry helps to discharge that tension...sometimes I deliberately make myself cry just to get it out ...

I sometimes also get those urges to shout.....remember especially when I was younger and if I was in a place that had an enforced quietness I wanted to wreck it by shouting....libraries,assembly! churches or even the cinema or a theatre....don't get it is much now but wanted to say ..."stop the world ..I wanna get off"...

It is a build up of tension isn't it....

Well my lovely....put today behind you and tell it to f******k off and start your day again tomorrow ......

take care hun...big hugs too

Rach and Doo xxx

Just calling in to give you a big hug my friend...all this will pass...your a fighter and you will get there.

Love Del xox

Fank you gurlies : )

Sometimes you have to turn into a toddler, and stamp your foot and say "it's not fair!"

Am a bit moody still today, and tearful, but had a cry last night and feel a bit better. Know what you mean Dotty - I couldn't get the tears to come at the time, but it does always help. Hubby being the absolute legend he always has been, and welcoming my inner toddler with open arms. I am so lucky, I really am. He has many different hats he wears for me - confidante, cheerleader, best friend, jester, mother, social worker lol. Bless him, he just gets back from work, assesses the situation and rummages about for the suitable hat.

I am choosing to use this episode of anxiety/depression to remind how lucky I am to have him : )

Onward!

Good on you Freda......glad a you released that block there and thank you for my post which was fantastic..

You are so right about boundaries and saying No...this is probably the biggest issue on a practical basis that I always have to deal with in one shape or form...

I have also wondered whether certain people are in my life solely because they have managed to get their own way by manipulation or guilt and now Im changiing the goalposts it's falling apart...so be it..

This time Im not going running after to make it all better and despite a long history,this person can stay put of my life as while they are in it its win/loose again and im made to feel grateful for things that even a total stranger would do freely.

I always feel tremendous guilt standing up for myself ..like im not worth it or the person will die suddenly and i will be the reason why....

Someone once said to me that if we saw a child or animal being treated badly we would all step in and protect them and cause merry hell if necessary...so why don't we do it for our own little children who live inside of us?

I don't even have any fixed religion nor have I been raised in religious family which would encourage self sacrifice...so I have no idea where this comes from.

old worn out messages I should imagine.....am reprogramming Freda and thank you so much for your support and understanding of this ...it means a lot to me xx

Big Hugs and squeezes special lady..

Rachel xxx

ps ..and they say us women can't work together...TSK....Lol xxxxxx

pps ..Your hubby sounds lovely....I think lovely people are always drawn to equally lovely people xx

good on you freda.

All them gamble free days are certainly making you a stronger person.

Not long now till your year milestone.

Best wishes

w.P

Thanks Freda

....it makes so much sense and its true in that I am rubbish at asking for help....always have been ....

I thought about what you said there and am not going to give this any more thought now til next meeting...I am unrealistically hard on myself sometimes and forget that as a kid we dont have the same knowledge or survival skills adults.

There are a lot of .there are good times to be had as you say and...and its called the weekend..LOL

Hugs and (((((((((f))))))))).......ps ...still thinking about that parrot ....lol .....

Rachel xxx

Hi Freda... I just wanted to echo whats already been said. Good to hear that other half always wears the correct hat befitting of the occasion 😉

I also wanted to let you know that my sweary parrot is in fine song this evening. Though his words are a little repetitive. Happy days.. S.A 🙂

We all have days like these, Freda.

You are so lucky to have such a supportive husband to see you through them.

Just remember to do the same when he has those days.

Have a great weekend,

NT

Hi Freda,

Glad your feeling a bit better.

One quick question i know hes your hubby but could i borrow him for a week pllllllllleeeaassssseee:0)

Chin up lovely lady

Stay Strong

E xx

ee! I'm not sharing him with ANYONE!!!! lol

Well just a quick post to say all is well and on 41 weeks+ now. Have had a busy week, so hoping to catch up with diaries soon!

Birthday girl today - have been spoiled rotten : )

Happy Birthday Freda--glad to read you are being spoiled today.

Best wishes

Stumper xx

Hi Freda 🙂

Well done you are doing so well. Happy birthday, I am glad that u r being spoilt u deserve it. 🙂 xx

Hi Freda,

Calling in with a high five for today and congratulations on your continuing succes. I know that times have been tough for you, but you are getting that weeny bit stronger each day and the time between your tough days will get longer and longer.

41 weeks and still going strong is amazing and I can't wait to be there for the 1 year party!!!

Thanks for all your support

Paulds

Hi Freda, thanks for your support on my diary and your kind words 🙂 means alot. I hope you are well xx