I cannot believe i have done this to myself

Hi smashed,
I slipped few times before. I was in it for the money for the winning but i realised, accepted and believe that this is all fake and i will never make any money out of gambling and i got my self into a lot of debt.
From now on i have to be on my gaurd.
Goodluck and keep on going.

Hi brad,
Its hard but it can be done. You just have to see and keep on remmebering all the bad things which comes with gambling.
Think of what you could do with the money spent on gambling: new car, holiday , spend money on your self and on your family.
That should be the way foward. Goodluck

60 days GF. I am feeling down. I guess feeling the bad results of gambling is not easy eventhough i am trying move on and look forward...

75 days GF. This is going to be along long road...
The more things settle down. The clearer the picture is. I can see how bads things have been and the size of the damage i have caused.

82 days GF. Budget abit tight. 1 week for payday.
Goodluck everyone and keep strong

90 Days Gambling Free.
3 months ago I had my biggest lost of of £3250 in less 24 hours. That was crazy but that was my biggest wake up call.
As a result of my losses I maxed out 1 overdraft and 2 credit cards.
I had my bills paid for par my council tax ( i had to borrow money from a friend to pay this bill) I freaked out I though this is me done. I couldnot work out how much my monthly minimum payments would be. Overtime at work was drying out, I was terrified.
Now 3 months on....
My debt is down from 18.5k to 16.5k. I have no savings for emergency but this is my next step. I will also try and gather all the debt on one credit card through balance transfers.
Everything is better now, I am not yet out of the danger zone but i am on the right track.
I will be lying to say if gambling thoughts havenot come to my head especially when bills amd payments are due. Budget is very tight at the moment but i am still in the early stage.
Goodluck everyone, hopefully one day gambling will be illegal and no one has to go this painfull and hurtfull experience.

90 days is quote something and to clear that amount too. Sometimes I feel I will never be debt free but like yourself slowly my mountain is being chipped away at. Hope you'very had a good weekend and here's to your next 90 days and beyond S:)

Thanks sharon.
I think I paid a fair bit of debt in the heat of the momen if you know what i mean.
I think my debt repayment plan will slow down abit cuz i have been tough on myself for the last 3 months.
As long as I donot gamble eveything will be okay. Even if i need anything i can turn to family and friend for help but for an honest and true reasons.
Goodluck in your recovery. Looking forward what the next 90 days will bring.

Awesome mate, you didn't let your slip up stop you and look at you go now. Great job paying that debt down you should be proud of what you have already done. Think where you can be in a years time. Yes that seems a long way off but just keep doing what you're doing and it will come.

Thanks sjwsjw for your encouragement.
How are you getting on...?

Im 33 days GF. This is my first REAL effort to stop this madness. I've finally accepted i cannot do this alone. Close family now know everything, they have my cards and give me an allowance, unsual blocks in place to stop me online too and im having phone counselling, second phone call will be tomorrow night. Im 29 and have a 10k debt from sports betting.

Have already had tough days and have had to face up to some areas of myself im not happy with and need to work on but im feeling better for the honesty i have final shown and feel more free of the guilt that has crippled me for years from hiding this and letting it continue.

Lets finish this year strong and make 2018 a gamble free one!

Last night I had a bad dream. I dreamt of a relapse. I lost ВЈ 3190 in the dream.

Oh my god, I was so happy and relieved to wake up and realise it was just a bad dream.

97 days GF free 🙂

2 days to go for 100 days GF.
Nice, my true me is on the way back the 3& half years gambling spell wasnot a person like me. A really bad spell in my life..lesson learnt....

100 days GF.
A parking fine has ruined my celebration today.
I am trying to save the pound and guess what i get a £65 ticket. Well annoyed with my self.

Congratulations Adam on 100 Days GF.

Sorry about your parking ticket, I have had a few in the past and it is really annoying.