I cannot believe i have done this to myself

Awesome Adam. Very well done.

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Well done Adam! Big milestone regardless of that stupid ticket -_- On to the next 100

Well done Adam! 🙂

Superb achievement to reach 3 figures!

That parking ticket fine will feel like a drop in the ocean compared to the thousands that you’ve saved from not gambling.

Don’t let it spoil your celebrations.

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Thanks Moorey.
Count for the next 100 starts tomorrow. This site has been a great help 🙂

The worest thing about gambling is when you see, hear and feel how people around you are moving on with life, planning holidays, buying new cars etc..
I was like that I want to be like that again...

Bit of a late congratulations here for your huge milestone last week!

I can relate to how you feel about people moving on with your life, but I try to tell myself that I'm rebuilding my life again with better foundations. And yes, it's gonna take me a bit longer to catch up, but when I do, my life will be so much more secure and I'll enjoy everything in general so much more with that safety net.

Thanks Adam. I agree, I just have to be more patient..
110 GF.
Have a GF weekend everyone.

Feeling low today. Lastnight I did something weird I played free roulette its just a game downloaded of playstore and I also watched rocka fellla on youtube, watch him win/lose fortunes.
Today I had a really bad day, things are not going myway. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. 114 GF soon will be 4 months.

I donot know what's wrong gambling thoughs are back on my mind..
Urges are all time high since i stopped 4 months ago.
I really worried...

Hi Adam

Hang in there and keep strong. Use whatever blocks you have in place and try and remember how low gambling took you - do you want to go there again?

What are those urges really? They are just a thought inside your head - don't blow them up to be something big and powerful that has control of you. You are the one in control of them.

You can do this.

Just read your diary Adam, well done to you. I am only on day 3, and so much of what you said sounds familiar. I hate having to worry every time I'm due to go out with friends, or need to go shopping, as I know my finances are so stretched ... I feel so ashamed of myself at times. 100 days GF seems amazing to me, but your diary has certainly spurred me on

Hi Adam, I read your first post and you also sound like me, I thought I could win 50-100 a day and I'm not 11-12k in debt. Together we can all beat this, one day at a time

Wilsy

Thanks must stop and horall. I am feeling more positive today. This emotional rollercoaster aint great.
I guess it's part of the recovery process.

121 GF
Close relative has passed away couple of days ago so i am in a really sad mood.
This year has been the toughest year in my life. Soon this year will be in the past just like my gambling.