I cannot believe i have done this to myself

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Adamjamal2014-2017
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Thank you Eva

 
Posted : 28th May 2018 11:28 am
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What a brilliant effort. You should feel very proud. 300 days is amazing

 
Posted : 28th May 2018 12:04 pm
Adamjamal2014-2017
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316 days GF. Debt is my problem now not gambling.. its putting a lot of pressure on my life style.

Just like gambling hopefully soon debt will be a memory.

 
Posted : 12th June 2018 5:19 pm
Jackson10
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Well done Adam on being 316 days GF. I can really relate to your last comment. I am 233 days GF but I also feel like debt is now my problem and not gambling. I have plenty of blocks in place like gamstop and self exclusions but have rarely felt urges since the first few weeks. I'd never truly tried to quit before I registered here but just reached a point where I was truly done with gambling in order to save the rest of my life going further in a direction I did not want. Of course it is gambling that created that debt so the consequences of dealing with it are a constant reminder of the destruction caused. They will keep going down and eventually we'll be debt free as well as gamble free. As long as we never see gambling as a solution to those debts we'll get there! I agree with all the people on here who refer to no bailouts - we have to face up to the consequences of our actions ourselves . Good luck in continuing to rack up the GF days and seeing debts fall.

 
Posted : 12th June 2018 6:50 pm
Adamjamal2014-2017
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Thank you jackson. I am paying regularly into my debt but interset is a big killer.
But like you said we will eventually be debt free as long as we stay gambling free...

 
Posted : 12th June 2018 10:45 pm
Adamjamal2014-2017
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Last night after a dinner out i ended up in the casino with my friends. Stayed at the casino bar for few drinks . I didnot gamble or even watch . I am glad nothing happened.
Near miss. It wasnot part of the plan but i should have left after dinner.

 
Posted : 28th June 2018 11:24 am
Adamjamal2014-2017
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335 GF..
1month to go for 1 year GF. Countting down starts today..
I am firmly walking away from this and almost 1 year away soon..
Goodluck eveyone and keep up the hard work.

 
Posted : 1st July 2018 9:26 pm
Adamjamal2014-2017
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356 , GF .. almost a year gambling free. Life is tough enough without gambling and debt..

Still in debt , still long way to go. Its sad to see whats gambling is doing to britain and ppl everyday.

Feeling abit negative today. Hope everyone else is doing well.

 
Posted : 22nd July 2018 6:09 pm
Adamjamal2014-2017
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1 year GF tomorrow.
Its has been great year. I learnt alot about myself and changed few things. I donot think i am cured yet i donot think I will ever be.
Still battling with my debt which is down from ВЈ18250 to £11900.
Another year starts tomorrow and I am full of hope.
I hope eveyone the best of luck.

 
Posted : 31st July 2018 10:25 am
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Very well done on the almost year, reading yours and other diaries like your are an inspiration to someone like me who has tried and failed many times to beat this thing. Just to say keep up the good work!

 
Posted : 31st July 2018 11:18 am
Adamjamal2014-2017
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Thank you tryinghard1234.
How are you getting on at the moment. How many days GF ?

 
Posted : 31st July 2018 3:38 pm
Adamjamal2014-2017
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379 days GF.
Why am i thinking about gambling these days.. i am so annoyed with my self cuz i am thinking of it.
I have to stay strong.greed and wanting more money is my root cause of all of this.

 
Posted : 14th August 2018 10:11 pm
Adamjamal2014-2017
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392 days GF. I went out on saturday night with my mates. After club we ended up in the casino, they gambled but i didnot, they re not even a gambling people one gamble ВЈ10 , the other £20 for fun.
I think i should've said no and never went but look no harm is done as i didnot gamble but felt so guilt afterwards.
I hope all had a lovely bank holiday weekend.

 
Posted : 27th August 2018 2:45 pm
Donna2501
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Wow well done on your day count!

This demon will rear its ugly head without any warning just be on your guard, one slip could ruin your hard work.

Keep strong!
Dx

 
Posted : 27th August 2018 3:05 pm
Adamjamal2014-2017
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Great! I have managed to log in today. I am so happy.
431 days GF. I just want to be debt free, this is my aim now and this is my target..:)

 
Posted : 5th October 2018 7:52 am
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