Day 452
thank you Sharon and Matt , you guys are my inspiration here ! Some good news my wife and I send to the bank to check how much can we get for a first time buyer , looks like we’re getting an4 bed room house 🙂 6 -8 months from now . Never give up !
Sars
Day 500
what can I say ! I’m livin’ The dream ! Sorry I couldn’t log in for some weird reason but I’m not giving up! Determination and self-respect are keys to beat this addiction ! My life is so much better ! I’ll be busier next month as our baby is due ! 2nd and last lol
-Sars
Aaah Congratulations on 500 days! What a fantastic achievement, exciting times take care Sx
500 days gamble free is simply wonderful Sars.
So pleased you and your family are happy and well.
I join Sharon in offering you my congratulations for a great achievement and wish you every happiness as you continue on your gamble free adventure...stephen
Dear Sars
Warmest regards from us here at GamCare, so good to read that you've been gf for over 500 days. It sounds like you have many things to look forward to. I'd like to take this opportunity to also thank you for your continued inspiration and support to other forum users.
Keep up the fantastic progress!
Leigh
Forum Admin
Congratulations on making it to 500 days GF. I wish you and your family well in your GF life. Happy days ahead.
Day 504
I am pinching myself just to make sure that I’m actually GF for over 500 days ! It’s the best decision I made to save my family , my love ones and myself from destruction. Since I’ve stopped wasting and throwing my life away my wife and myself managed to turn things around ! New businesses , Job promotion , second baby on the way , new house to buy next year ( deposit money already saved ) , more time with my family and friends , and a less stressful life !
@sharon - it’s been a long time my friend 🙂 , thank you for the continuous support , hope you’re all well ! We are in this battle together.
@sir Stephen - thank you for keeping us all inspired ! Your presence made a difference to our journey ! Thank you so much !
@admin leigh - thank you 🙂 , I will continue to stay gamble free one day at a time .
@G100 - thank you for the kind words , I hope you do well yourself my friend take care 🙂
-Sars
Day 541
Still Gamble free ! Life is wonderful !
Sars
Sars27 wrote:
Day 504
I am pinching myself just to make sure that I’m actually GF for over 500 days ! It’s the best decision I made to save my family , my love ones and myself from destruction. Since I’ve stopped wasting and throwing my life away my wife and myself managed to turn things around ! New businesses , Job promotion , second baby on the way , new house to buy next year ( deposit money already saved ) , more time with my family and friends , and a less stressful life !
@sharon - it’s been a long time my friend 🙂 , thank you for the continuous support , hope you’re all well ! We are in this battle together.
@sir Stephen - thank you for keeping us all inspired ! Your presence made a difference to our journey ! Thank you so much !
@admin leigh - thank you 🙂 , I will continue to stay gamble free one day at a time .
@G100 - thank you for the kind words , I hope you do well yourself my friend take care 🙂
-Sars
Love this diary entry. So inspiring. Kudos to you.
Day 581
happy new year everyone ! Still GF and I’m thinking of leaving this thread soon . I’m probably just gonna visit every now and then ...
@signal I’m glad to know that I’ve inspired you ! Hope you’re doing well 🙂
Sars
Hi, I have to ask you mate, did you get your gambling under control or even stop altogether?
i am too suffering quite badly and wanting to end the rotting of my brain because I can’t stand this feeling of not having enough gigabits to process all of my mounting problems caused by this vicious guilt by gamble. I too have been spending all my rent money in the 5 months iv lived in my own place (a dream of mine for as long as I can remember), and my 14 day eviction notice is overdue to come any day now. I can’t see anyway out of this dark cave iv dug, the devil has blocked me in with no way out and released that uncontrollable violent voice in my brain. I’m stuck and haven’t been taking my respiridone or my olanzepine, amongst other strong pain killers and my zopiclone for my insomnia and I can feel the end is near. I have never been happy or enjoyed life and iv spend over 15 years of it in jail due to a previous addiction which were heroin. I did cold turkey 14 years ago in jail for a hundred times or more, but this were my last and I had just got 5,1/2 year sentence at Lincoln crown court for possession with intent to supply heroin. I told myself there and then this were my last cold turkey I’ll ever do because I were sick of it and it were my worse ever fear. I stuck to my word and got released in October of 2008 and I moved in with someone I had met whilst serving that last sentence via a friend of a friend, and I were out of Rotherham and moved in with Susan at Doncaster. Fresh start which were hard as I had never completed a licence never mind a 3 year one. I had to keep squeaky clean with regular drug and alcohol tests and many appointments to keep, they are that strict when on licence these days they will send you back to finish all the 3 years left if I didn’t s**t in the right toilet. I were refused any benefits due to Susan earning £5-£10 over the amount allowed in Wages, so she had to then look after me which made me feel like dog poo to be honest but there were nothing I could do about it and times were hard. I didn’t feel like much of a man so I had to get a job although I needed an ankle replacement and my lower leg bone were rubbing with my upper ankle bone which as you can imagine were very painful. I did get work but ended up in hospital due to my ankle bone chipping and had to have an emergency operation to repair it. 4 operations later and in disabled and can’t get about without an aid to put it bluntly and this is what caused me to try other means of earning a wage as my foot couldn’t weight bare for 12 months to start with and the advertising of gaming just became so surreal and overwhelming. 6 years later I’m at where I am today and when I get evicted that’s when I’m gonna crash as my mum and sister will find out what iv been doing and it will disappoint them that much after giving me more chances after my heroin years, I will be disowned and all alone then because iv already lost my life with sue due to bringing the devil with me to live at her home. God will never ever forgive me and scare that ugly thing that seems to be on my back 24/7,, it is payback for all my past crimes committed which I never served time for, and I am already told on a daily basis I am going to hell and it’s mainly this what is scaring me from taking my own life as I know it says in the bible that taking your own life will never bring you to heaven. I’m constantly fighting with this di_k head who is shouting me down from my eyes opening at whatever time night or day that is a lately to when they close if they ever do as I can never remember if I have even been to sleep or not. I don’t know how long iv been awake and it seems forever, my vision is blurred but my mind is racing like Lewis Hamilton at his best in ecstasy. I need to go now and good luck to all of you who have managed to kick that devil away and every time you say no your winning so best of luck to all in process and the success story tellers too
i can’t think now and I’m not even sure if iv wrote owt understandable In this message or is it a cry, either way I need to go sorry
respect to all
shaun (panchokeen)?
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