This is day 2 with no gambling. I have decided to start a journal today as I had an urge earlier due to being bored so came straight on here. I am a 42 year old female and started online gambling 15 years ago. i had a big win which eventually all went back and lots more and has since ruined my life. Since being in a dmp and a Ccj thnx to my stupidity I managed to clear my debts. After being debt free I had money to spend so thought why not! Lo and behold I thought this time I could control it but of course I can't and I am now nearly k10 in debt again. I have not told my present partner and can't, I am frightened he will leave me and I can manage to pay off my debts at the moment without him knowing. I know I should tell him and I will in time. i am so ashamed why do I do it? i am only happy once I have totally destroyed myself and lost everything. it is so easy now I even have casino sites coming up on my Fb and just can't seem to get away from it. i am hoping to beat this and will take one day at a time, but one thing I have realised is I will always be an addict. thanks for reading any support is welcome, I need all,the help I can get at the moment!
Have you considered any counselling? Gamcare offers it. Might be worth giving them a call?
Cheers triangle I thought about this will give it a go many thanks!
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