Day 8
Saturday was nice. Took the time and effort to spruce myself up. It was noted by OH. That would have normally been time spent playing slots. With it being the weekend can truly see how time consuming Mr 'G' was. Anyways went and visited family and snuggled up on the sofa to watch xfactor. Good day x
Day 9
What a struggle that was!! OH was out all day and I just couldn't bring myself to get dressed...I was just pondering around the house like a zombie, boredom, should be slotting it away....but couldn't all cash in my drawer...thank god!! I would have crumbled, I know I would have. I'm scarred for payday. Didn't want to take all the cash out when I get paid but reckon that's what I'll have to do, rather the £28 bank charge for being in overdraft than give my money to Mr 'G'!! Anyway I fought it, managed to get dressed by early afternoon and went to visit a friend. Weekends are the most dangerous days for me, must think of something to do on those days that doesn't involve being indoors...zombie nation is not the look for me. On a positive note still gamble free....x
Day 10
Feel better than yesterday as back to routine with work. However keep thinking about payday next week and how I will probably fail..go scouting for some slot site I haven't signed up to. Give me strength!! Anyways gamble free for now...double figures eh!! Let's get to the triple numbers. Csa money comes in this week....must withdraw and put into drawer...reminder to ones self. Anyone in a self managed DMP....how easy/hard to do? Something I want to look into as current DMP takes a few and has never requested a bank statement from me...don't think they're are working in my best interest tbh...any advice greatly appreciated. Not looking to do right away as don't want to relapse and be unable to commit and get myself in more of a mess. Thanks x
Congratulations on reaching double figures. Keep strong and think about how things will improve with more time without Mr G
Thankyou Weldy!! Hope u can get rid of him too 🙂
Day 11
Been doctors today...was forced by my family...see I'm one of those people who never go doctors unless I feel I'm dying, don't even take paracetamol. Well now waiting on letter from hospital , hope it's not serious...so yeah no thoughts of gambling, sorry not got much of interest to say. Just hope the stress of Mr 'G' has contributed to this health scare x
Day 12
Massive headache today all I can think about is payday next week ...on my phone calculator every 5 mins working out what needs to be paid...heads all mushy. Csa money came in today...withdrew only to come home to put away in my drawer to find it was £20 short...did the bank short change me as I put it straight into my purse and came home. They're investigating it for me....it really made me stressy...£20 ...Mr 'G' would have that in an instance, so why is it winding me up so much? Anyways...I took the stress out on the washing machine, Hoover (I mean I was going in...hovering places that probably ain't seen s Hoover in 2 years lol).....still got massive headache. So still gamble free...:-)
Day 13.
Good day...work, friends, busy busy day!! Mr 'G' cannot tempt me today. Wishing u all a good day x
Good work, that's 2 weeks tomorrow!
Thank you Weldy...true test will be payday!!
Day 14
No sight of Mr 'G' about as was a hard day at work. Good news, my son got a job...only a few hours a week but enough for him to start saving ready for when he starts to learn driving...want to help him out with this so much...would feel so good to help him, I cannot afford for Mr 'G' to ruin that moment. Bad news recieved letter for a hospital appt...fingers crossed it's not goodbye Mr 'G' and hello Mr 'C'....what this has made me think is how much time and money have i wasted on Mr 'G' if this does turn out to be serious. Guilt guilt guilt x
I hope that it doesn't turn out to be too serious, fingers crossed for you
Try not to think too much about the wasted time and money - they are gone, concentrate on the future
Morning glad to see your still doing well, I'm still knocking Mr G flat out lol and will continue x x
Thankyou Weldy...my fingers are crossed too!!
Yes Emily...I'll be checking on you also x
Lol Anon...yes kick him to tha curb!!
So quick update...still non gamble!! Yaaaaay!! Mr 'G' appears to be hiding for now. Day 15 (sat) ....had a day/night out with family and friends which was great...hadn't thought about Mr 'G' all day until my partner made a comment about sorting out our money as he doesn't understand why his money doesn't seem to go far...I think I almost had a panick attack...he's been carrying me ...once I spend most my wages...he's the one paying for takeaways etc. I must treat him.
Day 15 ...family time with my sis and nephews. Glad they came round it kept me super busy as partner was out...Sundays = I'm a bit bored..Mr 'G' attempts a visit. Well as I said before I have the cash on me so it could not have happened anyway.
Day 17...today!! Work work work work!! Feeling better as time goes on. About to cook a nice meal for the family, get my onesie on and settle down for the evening. Wish everyday could be as easy as today. 17 days GF...4 days til payday...x
Day 18.....non gamble 🙂
Day 19....non gamble 🙂
Day 20....non gamble 🙂
Tomorrow payday....due to be non gamble too x
Oh dear the panic is starting ....pay day pressure (PDP for short..as time goes on you will get used to my sayings I'm sure)....I'm sure this will not be easy & will feel this for the next few paydays yet. Mr 'G' I can feel you wanting to pay a visit...however we don't talk no more!
It's payday!! Must fight the urges!! Opened my news app only to read about a man who won £35k on a casino site...he had self excluded from sister site so told no he can't have winnings...but he got it in the end. Gambling sites will be investigated re deposit bonuses and how they make it hard for customers to withdraw..how bout they just shut em down. Anyhow gable free so far 2day...phone bill paid. Council tax and loan later...I neec all the strength for today x
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