Matts diary

Good work Matt,

There is nothing easy about the road to recovery, different things work for differnet people, the only thing I know is that life is so much easier when we stay away from gambling, just have to deal with things head on no more hiding and hurting the ones we love.

Well done again for going to GA keep reading and posting here.

Stay Strong Stay G/f

Malc

Thanks malkie76

It is amazing as you say life is so much easier without gambling, yes we have the reality of debt and the destruction we caused but our life's are manageable now we know what we can afford and not,

We'll another day GF for me, had a few resentments today but nothing I couldn't sort out through a quick chat with my higher power, the road is straight for me, no lies nothing to hide, being in reality at all times,
Meeting my sponsor tommorow I enjoy these days I would advise anyone who can get 1 to get 1, personal chats 1 to 1 are the key aswell as unity with this website or GA rooms

All the best for tommorow my friends 1 day at a time

Matt

Another day GF been a very quick day and very little gambling thoughts, a friend has admitted having a gamble today I'm sad for the guy but he isn't following the steps layed out in GA so failure is inevitable, he has got complacent and paid the price,
Family life is good having more chat with the missus about my gambling and doing little exercises relating to the 12 step recovery which is very tough but the action is required, going to leave that there today,
Hope everyone is good and if anyone is struggling drop me a line I have been through it all so if your worried you can't stop I can guarantee that you can with the right tools!!

Hi all

Just a little update things are going well, attended my Monday meeting to get my GA medicine to keep me that step away from gambling, big week for me with my sponsor as I am looking back at some of the thoughts of people I have hurt in the past with my gambling but I am in a good place to do it just now, only 43 days off a bet but it seems like a life time ago with all the hard work I am putting in. Hope everyone is doing well drop me a line if anyone is struggling

Matt

53 days gambling free and things are going well,
I am not just stopping gambling I am changing the person I have become working through the 12 step recovery programme because that's the programme I need, I have tried to stop using self will but that didn't work for me I lasted a few weeks but Ended up back gambling causing carnage, stealing from loved ones spending 90percent of wages leaving myself and my family with no money, taking out loans after loans and not paying them back because I had no money! Gambling took me down many paths I have been to jail through gambling and on 2 occasions have tried to commit suicide everything terrible you can think of it have done it, so 53 days into a proper recovery and things are great rebuilding relationships changing the person I have become, spending and focusing time on family, I haven't thought about gambling for a few days last Saturday in fact, gaining the trust of my family again all in such a short space of time, I really have gamblers anonymous to thank for this and my own want to stop gambling! If anyone is reading this I hope it can urge you to make the same steps

Matt s

Well done Matt. I hope many, many people are reading your story. I am fairly sure you will end up having helped a lot of people see all the ups and downs that go with this problem and the right steps to take to turn your life around. Nice to hear you have a supportive family and are able to chat to your partner about things. That makes such a difference. This is a very hard problem for anyone to deal with on their own. I wish you both all the best for a bright future.

Hi Matt

Just wanted to say a very well done to you. So pleased to read that you have now found something that is working for you and you are able to see the benefits of this. Going 53 days in succession is excellent but more importantly, building bridges with your family and loved ones is priceless!

I wish you the very best of luck on your recovery journey.

Take care.

Our Lady

Hi gamparentanon & our Lady for your posts,

I very much appreciate it, gam parent I have been to a few meeting where gam anon has been I attendance and it's so hard actualy hearing it from the other side! I never had a clue the damage I done to those around me! I hope you are getting some recovery,
Our Lady I see you had over 2 years recovery wow that's a great effort but just shows that we can never recover from this illness, we can never stop being aware that it's there or itl bite us in the b*m, I wish both use all the best

Matt

Hi gamparentanon & our Lady for your posts,

I very much appreciate it, gam parent I have been to a few meeting where gam anon has been I attendance and it's so hard actualy hearing it from the other side! I never had a clue the damage I done to those around me! I hope you are getting some recovery,
Our Lady I see you had over 2 years recovery wow that's a great effort but just shows that we can never recover from this illness, we can never stop being aware that it's there or itl bite us in the b*m, I wish both use all the best

Matt

Not posted on here in a while but am now 111 days gambling free,

The days are sometimes hard to fight off those little thoughts of going back gambling and that I can do it normally but it really has never worked so I know it's just the illness telling me it would be Ok, if I don't gamble today I will be ok that's all I know!
Trying to change as a person is the way forward for me just now,

Matt