My Diary of Shame

Many thanks for your post on my diary. Some harsh truths have been said on both sides which has cleared the air. We now begin to work things through together.

Best wishes x

Lol xx Yep I saw the gauntlet being thrown down but don't fear special"K " luckily for me Deano sent me the beginners guide to an inner calm and as luck would have it chapters 1-4 are covering Gregorian Chanting and Joss stick burning so alls good . I did hear Martins voice booming out "Feel the force Alan , this is your father " speaking :)). Thanks for worrying though :)) xx. Ps Deanos gonna be so proud xx. Ps I think I should be paid for my unique sense of humour too ? Xx

Thank you, I will stay on my guard and think like with any addiction you have to. I'm never going back to that awful place I like the old me that is coming back and starting to enjoy life again before the awful g. On another note the dog is digging the garden up, then puts her head down the hole and starts howling, it's wet out there, now have muddy paw marks all through the downstairs grrrrr. How's you and yours x

Morning my little Dutch friend. I'm assuming the Hawaii day is from the old TV show...Hawaii 5-0. Don't pretend you're too young to know that 🙂

So why's the bottom lip sweeping the floor? It's not very hygenic you know x

I stand corrected. Hawaii is the 50th American state...old as well as stoopid! Thanks Alan (although no one likes a smart @r*e) x

Hi thank you for the post and congrats on my 50th! Lol about the dog, I think I'm going to try the black kong but the large or the xtra large one see if that keeps her more occupied. Here's a big slice of chocolate cake coming your way x your an inspiration to people on here just starting recovery x

Just a lil thank you for being great friend, for supporting so many souls on here and sharing recovery with others.

You're an inspiration and am more than proud of you!

#standingwithanarmy

KOKO

Evening " Dutch"ess ? I know your not now but just seemed kinda right ! :)).

Yep the shop's my "Baby" and it would be like leaving it in the hands of a really good stepdad Grrrrh !! and I really do need a job to come back too instead of being shunned by all the regulars , just got visions of " Bring back Dunc's " Banners everywhere LoL I'm fortunate that there was a little surplus from my pension drawdown for my daughter's wedding but your right , had I still been gambling it just wouldn't have been possible because the money wouldn't have been there for long enough , some machine would have taken it first :((.

Pleased about the hips too , not so keen on the op but can't wait not to be in pain any longer , as for the kiddwinks and xmas we really have no Idea . Their all back in court today and tomorrow actually but I really don't think the social services want them to go back with their parents. It's all a bit sad really and the middle one has started acting up a little with tantrums but only because they know things are changing , if the courts back the SS then that's it they'll be placed for adoption , well at least the 2 youngest but the eldest has learning difficulties so it'll prob be long term fostering for him . Were as nervous for them , it so hard not to become too attached but you can't really help being that way though , my partner even suggested to the SS about a sort of shadow caring that's available , where their parent could come and live with us and she would oversee the care but although they can allow that , they were having none of it :((.

Whatever happens though I'm hoping they'll be with us for xmas , adoption's not going to happen overnight so there's a good chance :)) .

Thanks for the compliment about my partner and I totally agree with you , She does rock , Big time :)).

How about you , How's things ? , I know youv'e been in a little turmoil with things of late and it must be difficult at times , why can families be so e***n difficult sometimes ? .

What about the dog ? have you accidently lost her / him ? yet ? , I was thinking of you the other day while going through some old books ( and yes you are a classic ) but it wasn't that , I came across " Training Dog's the Woodhouse way " , remember her ? " SIIIIIT " " Walkiiiiiiiiiiiies " Lol .

Thanks for the drop by special " K " and sorry for the ramble :))

Kisses !!!

Hi, ODAAT,

Thanks for your post. I don't know, it's not all him, it takes two but a classic addict technique is to pick a fight. He's seething with resentment but I'm not his verbal punchbag and I do think I deserve better. Getting out of the Betari Box is a whole lot harder with someone who is hellbent on being totally unreasonable.

Thanks again.

CW

Hi just read some of the advice you give out to people on here and felt I had to say you seem to be a really nice person and the time and thought that goes into your posts is amazing. Anyway last time we spoke you were feeling a bit down (lip dragging the floor) well I hope you have picked it up else your going to be stuck to the floor, it's freezing . seriously I hope your feeling brighter and your dad is behaving, mine is still digging up th garden, trying to run off with everything that she can and the latest thing again is the toilet roll, it's now placed high up on a shelf so that she cannot get it x With regards to my ex mr g, I'm over 60 days gf now and feeling so good. Take care and speak soon x

Correction not your dad digging up the garden etc., meant dog, bloody predictive text x

Hello ODAAT, have to share this one as my dog is prob making yours look like an angel at the mo. Today since coming from work she has broken th other halfs glasses, knocked one glass vase off the coffee table and wait for it..... I found a pink poo in the garden .... been looking around the house to find what she could have eaten, it must have been a little bit of the xmas spice pot pourie which is red lol anyway hope your feeling brighter x X

Hi ODAAT, just dropping by to say hi and hope all is going well with you. Thanks for your continued support also, much appreciated!

All the best

Hope you are well ODAAT; I remember all of your support to me in the past , and just wanted to offer some support to you too!

Just dropping by to say Thank you ODAAT, hope you are well.

M x