Pinky's Diary

Pinky

You have brightened my day and I daresay many more on here who have read your post.

You are showing that there can be light at the end of the tunnel and there is still hope for everyone. It was really interesting what you said about your partner's feelings about spending that much in the arcade and how you were now able to tell him that is how you had been feeling with this problem. A real insight for both of you I should think. I was only reading in the paper today that getting a pet can be a really therapeutic because they keep you busy and you have to start thinking about them and their needs. So good luck to you and your partner and Sox!

Thanks gam parent, I'm glad others can take something from my diary.

Day 170

My partner has been away for over a week working the Edinburgh fringe. It's the longest we've been apart since we moved in together a couple of years ago. I enjoyed the space for the first few days but I'm really missing him now x

Boredom and loneliness have been gambling triggers for me in the past and I'm happy and proud to say I've not even given gambling a thought this week.

I've still got Sox to keep me busy. She's so fun and cute! I'm loving being a pet owner, despite having my head pounced on at 3am most days 😀

I hope everyone on here is well.

Love & Light xx

Hi pinky, just caught up with your post after a few months. Glad you're doing well and loving your wee kitten. Noticed you've not posted for a while, hope you're ok xxx

Hi Annie.

I'm good thanks, hope you and all my other fellow rga's are doing well xx

Think I'm up to day 210 now.

Off to bonnie Scotland tomorrow to accompany my mum to see her sister. It'll be nice to catch up with that side of the family. There are cousins I haven't seen in years. In fact it's been so long, one of them has grown up children I'm yet to meet!

Should be a nice weekend, although I'll miss Sox, oh, and my partner 😀

Day 217

Last weekend was brilliant. I fit right in with the Scots lol.

The next few weeks might be stressful as we're moving house. My partner found an affordable rental house. I've not been there yet, but saw pics. It has a nice garden for our cat. I'm working the week we move, plus I'm cat sitting for my mum across town. That's what happens when I let my partner choose when to move hahaha.

He's feeling the strain, feels the move is all on his shoulders. It's kinda his fault though lol. We're moving because he mainly wants to. I just went along with it. I did online searches for places, but he picked which one. He chose when and dealt with the landlord. As for moving, I'll do my best. I've managed to grab an extra day off work even though I have no annual leave left and will help the best I can.

Still, most of the decorating and moving of furniture is up to him, his friends and the men with ven. But I dare say if the tables were turned he'd hate not having the control hahaha.

So,

Tomorrow will be day 1.

I'm cat sitting at my mums house and thought it'd be a nice treat to open a 12 year old malt last night. Got a little tipsy and and was able to open a new account at an old haunt. £180 later and I'm wallowing in guilt and remorse.

Why did I allow my guard to slip? Why do I do it over and over again?

I didn't update my address when I moved house. This morning I emailed any sites that I might be tempted to play in the future to update my self exclusions.

I feel very foolish. My life is better than it's ever been. I've got hope and dreams for a future. Am I really going to throw it all away?!

My partner has been supportive so far. But when I told him today I could hear the disappointment in his voice. He was upset with me, and understandably so. I spend money that I'd put aside for his birthday. I think that hurt him. He has his own hopes for the future, and it won't include me if I continue with this behaviour.

I'm worried I'm developing a problem with alcohol. I associate it with fun, and often feel I want a drink to be able to relax and unwind, or enjoy myself. I've decided to take a bit of a booze break - to remind myself I don't need that glass of wine to relax or have fun. Perhaps just leave it for special occasions. Im having a baileys on Christmas Day! 😀

Wish me luck with the rest of my life xx

Time to install a blocker? SE only goes so far especially when time's up and/or new sites are proliferating all the time.

Get your partner to set the password then consider counselling and GA to start addressing the root of your compulsion to gamble.

Thanks x

Day 1. The first of many! 🙂 here's to a great start!

Day 5 - keep going Angela 🙂

WCAWW!

Angela? Really hope you're ok....

M x

Hiya!!

Yes, I'm okay thanks M.

I've not bothered logging in for a while. I've had the odd peek over the site, but didn't bother to post anything.

Went away for our yearly trip to a haunted castle in Northumberland this week for my Mr's birthday. Took a couple of friends too, it was such a giggle :-))

Gamble wise, I'm doing good. Onto day 49.

I quit smoking five days ago, and am determined to have a bit of a health kick.

Hope all here are well xxx

Pinky x

Angela 🙂 Great to see you back and absolutely brilliant to hear that you're still gamble free!!

Isn't life so much better without Mr G!

M x

Day 79 gf.

Doing good. Tobacco free for over a month now. Started cycling to work too 🙂