hi ive been here before i was being really successful before with winning not really loosing much.
i won really big before xmas £17k on the roulette and it scared me i brought my fiencee and little one some really nice expensive gifts for xmas and quit gambling on the 23rd december unfortunately im the bread winner the mrs cant work because we cant afford child care we would be working for nothing.after i quit gambling i struggled and struggled and god knows i struggled some more ive been fighting trying to keep us above water but i was the one drowning we had food we had electric and a roof over our heads but at the end of the last 3 months ive lived off from £2.60 per week that was my reward for not gambling! we didnt have any refinements no take aways nothing and thats from working a fulltime hard manual labour job.
the mrs was pestering me for this that and the other which i couldnt afford i wanted to but i just didnt have the money. to the point she would kick off and tell me i may aswell go back gambling.this weekend i had enough i cant afford anything ever and im P****d off with it so i done the deed i went online and tonight ive lost all our bill money we cant afford rent we cant afford food we cant afford nothing and for the first time ever i used the joint account overdraft and done £50 from that too.
i guess those that remember me will say told you so and i deserve it.
shes asleep next to me now and i know she isnt going to have a very happy mothers day tomorrow shes going to be P****d off big time!
i stopped going to gamblers anon it was pointless the reason i stopped they were all talking about football who won what horses were running how they done (the horse not them gambling) and to me that was b******t theyre there trying to quit the place was at the bottom of a 1min walk hill from 3 bookies ffs.i didnt feel like i fitted in at all they were quite clicky and they were all into their higher power be what ever it maybe sorry but just calls out to me as religion and im really not the religious type.i guess its back to the forum for me again then and the weekly struggle to keep our heads afloat.why am i so f*****g stupid aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggg
Sounds to me Markie as though you and your Mrs need to sit down and have a talk, and See where costs can be cut. You say she can't work because of childcare, but what about a bit of evening/weekend work, when you are around to do the childcare. May not earn much but anything is better than nothing. You say you won 17k, but how much did you subsequently lose gambling? What about trying a different GA meeting? What about speaking out at the GA meeting and saying you don't find it helpful talking about football and horses. The membership may have changed since your last visit, why not give it another go? Do you really want to stop gambling?
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