The end of it all

Welcome back Paul,

It's good to see you back and having another go at stopping there's probably no advice I could pass to you that you haven't already heard so I'll wish you strength going forward.

Deano

Well done Lost - you may feel lost and overwhelmed at the moment but just take it bit by bit. I have tried to give up in the past too, and at the back of my mind think I always knew that I wasn't really ready....this time is your time to give up - truelly belive you can, and don't give yourself the option of not stopping. You can do this!! xx

Morning diary, how am I ? Still struggling to get out of bed since last Tuesday really my get up and go has gone x av no choice really work pays the bills though so I will rise maybe in five maybe in ten x I will put my head in my hands and say what av u done x then I will start another day of working misery x that is one reason I gambled to alleviate boredom x don't like my self much more x at least the house is warm this time of the year x back later diary x I have to join the working masses x

I have found medication for anxiety is a help. They have serotonin in them to help lift the Spirit. Maybe a visit to the Dr would help lift you? Don't struggle alone

Hi Katie, thanks for the recommendation, I may do that. I have made it too work as I always do, I can't say i have got anything out of the day except £84.00 Gross, funny (it's not funny) when you look at it, thousands over a night on a spinning wheel, yet you settle for £84.00 for a day's graft. Back later

Morning, still that sickening feeling at five a.m..at the massive losses and ruination of life going forward, made it too work, be back later diary

Good luck. It's Day 1 for me again today and first time I've started a recovery diary. Why don't you maybe look at getting some counselling? I have twice in the past through Gamcare and my counsellor was brilliant. She made me more accepting of myself and although I'm not 'cured' I have more understanding and a lot more control of my addiction cos these days I lose less. And the way I look at it is it took me about 500 attempts to quit smoking and now I've been smokekfree for 11 years. Whatever you decide, please try and be good to yourself.

All the best on new journey Lost.

You may be feeling really low as cant see much point - but it gets better.

Stay strong and slowly the mist will clear.

We all walk with you.

Sbb

Paul I'm posting on this thread as I'm assuming it's an active dairy so I hope you get it .

I've seen your post today and the last couple of day's and I'm really sad to see you back in the same place .

I really don't know what to say to you anymore that will make you sit up and take notice , there really is no difference between you and I except one thing " What decision's we make " "do I gamble today or not "? and that's it in a nutshell , you have the chance everyday to start with a " Blank sheet " and write your own future but everyday that you get up and create a photocopy of the day before nothing will ever change my friend ! .

Weve had numerous conversations on here in the past and every one seems to go in one ear and out the other , you dissappear for a while and come back proclaiming more misery and despair , I know what that's like mate and it hurt's like hell to feel that way but the point is that unless you take back control it simply will never be different , you know it's doable and I really wish you'd allow yourself the experience of being gamble free Paul .

I'm always about Paul so if you want a natter it's all good , I might not get back straight away but I'll alway's reply :))

Talk to you soon old buddy !

Still struggling all,need support want to be gamble free , my mind is in a mess , need this site, be back later .

Hi lost 5 years, that's how long you've been a member. That's a long time. If you are a slot addict watch the documentary. 'Pokies' it's about how the machines take your money through reinforced pleasure whether you win or lose. Pavlov's dog brain training. Designed to make you addicted and to make you lose ALL your money. I would suggest GA, but you've been here for so long I expect you've tried that. Hand over your finances, get rid of credit card, basic bank account. If you really want to stop you will, but you have to have the desire.

Video 'view this if you're a slot addict' in new members forum. Watch it

I know that the only continued support to beat the gambling demons in me will come from this site. Gambling has taken me to hell and back. At this moment I feel at my lowest ebb, early morning anxiety ripping through my body, wishing I could sleep forever and not face the reality of another day. I know these are the feelings of someone who has suffered major gambling losses and in time they subside somewhat but at this moment I am racked with pain guilt and fear of going forward with my life, gambling what have I done to have you in my life.

I am trying to think life will be worthwhile going forward, the chat room helps me, but these dark days and lack of funds and friends (lost cause i was always gambling) are getting to me, want to be happy and normal again, is that possible, .............. I live in hope .