Day 1.

Dear anon30,

Welcome to the Forum.

You are already taking those first steps in recovery by reaching out here and thinking about what changes you would like to make, how you are feeling and how to express those feelings, You may find it beneficial to talk to an Advisor on the National Gambling Helpline 0808 8020 133, this will be a non-judgemental person who will listen. They can also help you support you in finding practical blocks and planning your next steps.

Hopefully you will receive some kind peer messages soon.

Louise,

Forum Admin

Same! It's a horrible feeling and hopefully there's a light at the end of the tunnel

It's definitely worth taking the advice and call the number or chat online on this site. If you want to give up you can do like most of us have and that's blocks like Gamstop, Moses, gamban and contacting your banks to block your cards from gambling. 

Hi, well done on taking your first step, which is the hardest. Definitely get help and talk to someone, I found this the biggest help (weekly meeting with a counselor).

Try and fill your time with other thing walking, fitness, fishing anything that can take your mind of it.

if you get the urge leave your phone at home and take a walk.

im now 5 months GF before this I was in a terrible place, anxiety, depression, guilt, & shame. I had to gamble every day to get that hit. 
im now in a totally better place, enjoying life, living it with my family. 
It’s a hidden illness but you can recover and start to enjoy life again. 

This is my first day too. I am so depressed and angry at myself. I hope you are doing ok in your recovery journey. We can end the self-sabotage of gambling. It only brings terrible debt and outcomes. 

Good luck on your journey pal

I'm 3 weeks in to mine. I've been scrambling online to find a site I can use tonight though. Unsuccessfully. Thank god. That's why I'm here.