A fools diary

Day 4

So I have made it through another Day.....just..

This is the time when I usually go on the slots but have come her instead.

I want to thank all of you who have posted/replied to my posts....it i sbeacuse all of you that I am here and not gambling tonight.

So I do sincerely hope that all of you are winning your own personal battles at the moment

Thank you and goodnight

Day 5

Awake at 4.40am and thinking of those d**n slots........but resisting

Hi Notafool

I have met many problem gamblers/gambling addicts over the years and I can only think of smart people who did stupid or foolish things, but no actual fools or idiots. Personally I was totally powerless over my addiction at times, then one day I realised that I had to finish it before it finished me. My life is now so much richer and, of course I have bad days, but I deal with the problem, knowing that gambling will never be the answer.

You will find riches and fulfilment beyond your imagination, once you have escaped the unreachable dream world of the gambling addict. Keep going my friend. Every day is an achievement to be proud of.

Ken

So day 5 is drawing to a close, and thank goodness no gambling for me.

Going to sit and watch some TV and then an early night.

Not sure if its getting easier or not really still thinking of my favourite slot games but not getting tempted to play.

I have been thinking about how much I lost and stopped counting..... it runs into tens of £1000's, so thats certainly keeping me from playing although before this forum it would drive me to try and win some back. Whicj I did several times and then lost it and some more on top.

So........looking forward to Day 6 now.

Hope you all are maintaining GF

Hi Sunbeam,

Thank you for your very kind and supportive words.

I do feel a d**n fool at the moment but hopefully I can get back on track and stop being a fool

Thank you again

So Day 6 is here,

Thought I was looking forward to it but reality is kicking in and now have to face recovering in all ways.

I felt safe when those slots were spinning, feel exposed now and facing the real world

Hi

Just stopping by to say congratulations on 6 days. The first week is nearly over and things will start to get a little easier. The real world can be scary but it's also a beautiful place. There is a lot of help out there and lots of people that know what you're going through when it comes to addiction. Feel proud that you have broken the cycle and escaped the slots. You know deep down that you can't win at them because you can't stop. Wishing you will power and strenght

Keep up the good work

thanks westsider, hope youre doing well also.

Just had an e mail from a site, giving me my rewards for the previous weeks plays.

have withdrawn them but its burning a hole in my pocket. Not feeling very strong at the moment

Hi what a fool.

Great move that you have withdrawn the funds. I know it can be really hard to resist but just try to look at it like this - at the minute, you have got some extra money, on the other hand, that could all be gone in a flash (and possibly more if you gamble it)! Keep it and treat yourself to something you will really like/enjoy.

Look after yourself

Our Lady

Thanks Our Lady,

Jeez and I thought I was doing so well and looking forward to today GRRRRRr

Its d**n hard ...brain is telling me bank half gamble half....dont worry because youre still be up.

But I know it wont stop until it is spent and probably some more

I have come back on here after a while and several attempts to stop.

I have not gambled for 279 days now and am finding myself in a far better place