beating this terrible illness

Day 12 and at work all day. Feeling good though and not had any thoughts of gambling, I hate the word. Love my wife and family, onwards and upwards!!

Day 13 and I have been fishing with nephews! Not a thought in my mind today.

Compulsive gambling is thee invisible illness

This illness will ruin anything and everything

I have admitted gambling has me licked!

It is time now to give it some stick...

stick to being strong and true

dont let it get back at you

Gamblers never win and winners never gamble

So why on earth would a risk to sample?

Without gambling my life will come back..

Seeing family and friends, I just want them back

so here I am after many a year

Gambled away all of that cheer..

Gamble free now this is now me

never going back to where I once be!!

Be an inspiration to yourself as well as others Jaym. I will follow your recovery diary with interest and help where I can. Keep it up!

Thank you coachw, that means so much to me! I will take all help and advice on board and get through this for myself and more importantly my loved ones...

Day 14 no bets and no urge!

Day 15 and feeling good! Just not having a bet and not being in the false world does feel really good. Its great looking my wife in the face and know I have not been gambling...

Have to keep it going for everyone!!

Day 16 and at work all day which really helps but I have no urge to gamble! Keep strong and believe...

Day 17 the sun is shining and I finish work at 2pm and off for the weekend. What could be better. No urge and looking ahead. Strong, sensible, sain!

Late posting day 18. All good and feeling positive.

Day 19. I have had a few urges today but have not let it beat me. I have been withy wife all day and spent some quality time together! No urges anymore and up to now I am beating this illness... I have a long long way to go but I feel that the longer I go the less and less I will think about it.

Good Work Jaym

Keep it up. I am sure in a a few more days the urges will settle, you will be left with fleeting thoughts of gambling, mostly regrets. Urges you will be able to sweep aside.

Set yourself small manageable goals and rewards if you reach them.

Thanks TALBS that's good to here! I think so much about the money I have thrown away and know that if I was not a cg would probably own my own house now! When I think of stuff like this it is so hard to be positive, but I know the only way to move on is to be positive and not to think on the past but what I can do in the future...All the best

Feeling good but dreading an urge to gamble! It is the worst feeling ever, I have to be strong and turn my time and energy to my wife and family. My relapse on the 1st April was the worst feeling I have ever had. I never want to feel and be in that place ever again.

I have to beat this as I know as a person I have so much to give....

Feeling a little down today, not sure quite why, I think it is because the real realisation of the damage I have done and the hurt I have caused my wife and family! Does anyone out there have any advice on how to cope with this?? I am and will be strong to get my life, my personality, my charm, my kindness etc back.

Feeling empty and very sad. Day 21

Jaym

Hi jaym - You are feeling empty and sad, but you are on Day 21 of sanity! Hold you head up a little higher today and be proud.

Yes, you have a lot of guilt to cope with, but in some ways I think we use guilt to beat ourselves up as a way of feeling sorry for ourselves. This is the case when someone close dies - we always feel guilty about what we did or did not do, or say. It's all part of the grieving process, and you are grieving too.

Use these feelings in a positive way, to resolve that you will give your family, and yes, yourself, a better life.

Best wishes,

Joanna