My last bet was today at 2.37pm . My new life starts now.
Hey all again ty for the kind words means so so much.
So today is day 10 no uges today,
Went to the dentist need 2 teeth taken out, so gonna opt for sedation, not worried yet as its a while away lol
As i congrats to myself for the non gambling and exam results brought myself the new harry potter book. I am such a nerd.
Little bit tough at the moment my head gets fogged by gambling thoughts,no so much the urge but more the winning spin, but i am not going to be caught out, i knew the thoughts would come in stages,but the urges are at bay at the moment, so an early night i think listen to an audio book,by the way stephen fry has the most calming voice he has done the harry potter audio books.
Then tomorrow strive for another positive productive day
Urges are so strong today
Aaaaahhhhhh
Ride them out Rob. When something is so strong like that, it will eventually come crashing down - just like a wave and then gone.
Remember those terrible hunger pains!!
Stay strong and look after yourself.
Our Lady.
Read back on your diary and put yourself back to the hunger and desperation you felt last week. Would you risk it all to he back in that place? Stay strong my friend
Hey all thanks for the support as always,
So was awfully tough yesterday but got a couple of close people to me to tell me snap out of it.
When i got home cleaned, got a nice big pack of biscuits and read my harry potter book the only problem was it was so good i read it all in one night, so tonight building my airfix model.
Feeling good this morning.
Well done Rob, you got through those urges so stand up and give yourself a big pat on back.
You know you can resist those awful urges, you've done it!
You deserve more in life than gambling offers.....Hunger, despair, loneliness are only a few of the rewards that gambling will bring you....
Stick with your studies, keep busy & keep resisting.....Choose a life gamble free...Just for today!
Mari x
I am so angry right now.
Dont get me wrong I have no intention to gamble at all.
I was thinking What right do I have to forgive myself for the things I have done ? No rights.
I deserve to suffer for the lies, borrowing money, failing stuff, and the manipulation, so i could gamble.
I can not say to myself well boohoo i love you and i forgive me, because that is not fair on others if i do so.
Because if i say its okay i forgive myself, then essentially i am just brushing under the carpet all the bad things i have done just like that.
No no no I will not do that I have to make ammends on the things I have done and strive to be a better person to others, and try and succeed to make a better life for myself.
But as far as forgiving myself is concerned I will never do it.
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
