Thanks for your comments caught up, they always bring a grin to my face. You seem to be a very upbeat person and that’s contagious & in response to your question Sammy I’m doing okay trying not to dwell on my recent blunder too much but it’s hard when you have to take steps to think about how your going to make amends if you catch my drift. Hopefully I get through the week at work in a reasonable mood and let life pass me by for a while, time will heal my situation if I’m patient yet persistent.
Thinking of anyone who is currently struggling, as I attempt to walk away for good I’m sure there are many betting newbies stepping up to replace me and begin the trail down the dark path that gambling always follows.
Lambs to the slaughter.
Lets get you to your 23rd GF 🙂
You got this Progress.
Thanks Emptyp, I’ve not been a man of my word multiple times in relation to this issue over the past few years, it’s imperative that I reach my b-day GF, I will try to enjoy the occasion and reassess my situation after it. I had a pretty good day today, probably spent a bit too much given the fact I’ll have bills flying around left and right over the coming weeks but I have a nice lunch tomorrow and I’ll try to keep the positive mindstate flowing, if I can keep enjoying day’s like I did today with gambling playing no part it only reinforces the whole reason why I’m here right now typing these very words.
See you all tomorrow, sleep well.
Hi Tony , looking forward to your next update hope things are good
Hi Bryan & caughtup thanks for dropping by, I’ve stood strong so far and I’m still GF and have worked hard this week which is all I can do atm. I’ll check in more regularly in the lead up to my b-day if I can, I’m knackered, hungry and not in the best of moods right now but I certainly won’t gamble tonight and will make the same commitment tomorrow morning. The days have totted up but I don’t feel any sense of satisifaction right now, I think this is because I know I have a long way to go yet.
Don’t beat yourself up Tony . Every day you don’t gamble is a blessing and a far cry from where you were . Don’t stress too much about further down the line . Just subscribed to https://www.gamstop.co.uk/
Suggest you do the same . Just another block that will help you . I wasn’t thinking about gambling at all but this will definitely stop me from thinking about it
Ah at last Bryan! They took their time on that one, I’ve signed up immediately and feel relieved as the addiction has been whispering to me today telling me to go big on the playoffs tonight, that pish has been squated and I will continue until I feel better on an emotional level, I feel like that stage is round the corner, well at least I hope it is.
Keep going mate hopefully that self exclude is a big help . Stop playing around with this abstaining and do it properly . You will see the benefits I promise
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The few posts which I’ve updated to say “Blah blah blah” is because I chatted a load of rubbish which I didn’t follow up on and I’m ashamed to even read it back. I’ve been gambling again and have lost £400 over the weekend. Yet another time where I’ve thrown loads of money away I could of used to improve my quality of life, but instead I’ve thrown it away and will now have to live on next to nothing to meet my bills at the end of the month. It’s a very familiar situation and I don’t even feel that much pain from it these days, it’s all sooo played out and going through the motions makes me feel like I’m going to lose my sanity.
I’ve updated my bio with a few details and will be back at the end of the week hopefully 5 days GF. I also have to get a UK number ASAP so I can get enrolled on GAMSTOP, I’ve been begging for that aid for too long and now it’s finally here I must do all I can to utilise it. I had a good day at work today, it passed me by as I pondered over how I’m going to remedy my debts with the income I expect to be coming in over the next few weeks. I’m no longer harsh on myself, I understand that this is bigger than me and I must help myself by making it impossible for me to gamble. I used to think I was weak but that is not the case, this addiction is very very strong and me alone isn’t enough to keep it locked away 24/7.
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